Happy Easter

Me and the kiddos coloring eggs! (Cuddlebug and Explorer are the two next to me)

So does melted Chocolate Easter Eggs count as a form of liquid?

Just asking.....

O.K. so maybe I did have a couple very small pieces.......

BUT I WAS SO HUNGRY!!!!

O.K., O.K. so I know that Chocolate does nothing for my hunger... and I know I shouldn't have. Can we say... ADDICTION!!! sigh.

This week I can feel my appetite coming back with a vengeance. I am finding myself starting to graze on anything I can find that is partially a liquid. I really do have a mental problem when it comes to food. I know that as soon as I start getting fills that I need to be eating THREE meals PERIOD. NO snacking, NO grazing. In order to make this work for me... I need to dedicate more thought to what I put in my mouth.

Just working it all through my mind.... Happy Easter!!

Random Thought

O.K. so I get totally frustrated at myself sometimes because I can't lose weight on my own. I know that I will forever have some restrictions with the Lap-Band and I ask myself why not make those restrictions NOW without the Lap-band. I have come to this conclusion:

I am an food addict.

And just like other addictions I am unable to "kick" my food addiction. So I am going to think of my Lap-Band as a "Parental Control" for my body. Those addicted to Pornography for example could place parental controls on their computer to help control "urges". Sure there are ways to cheat but for the most part a parental control can help prevent the "act".

So in a nutshell... I will have a "parental control" on my body to help prevent the act of my overindulgence of food.